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Intimacy Tally and Sexuality
Dec. 17th, 2005 09:38 amHugs: 5
Tot: 2
----Once the day after Halloween; once when he found out about Rabbi-chan (I'm pretty sure)
Rikuou: 1
----Hugged by, and completely broke his brain, after he fell into the Jyuusenko springs.
Cal: 1
----After getting his heart back following the Gentlemen incident, Kaza hugs him because yay no more gaping hole in chest.
Momoko: 1
----Hugged by, and was completely taken off guard and tensed up, after giving her a Christmas present.
Kisses: 12
Cal: 2
----Kissed (or tonsels examined) once in the spin the bottle game, and (cumulatively) once during a slightly drunken poker game: technically--wrist, neck, cheek, and then an amazing kiss on the lips♥
Anne: 2
----Twice (one from and one returned) on the cheek during the spin the bottle game
Goku: 2
----Twice (one from and one returned) on the cheek during the spin the bottle game
Renji: 1
----While Renji was an eevee, Kaza kissed him on the top of his head. (Kitty~~~)
Rikuou: 3
----Once on the cheek which startled him, and once on the lips on the anniversary of their meeting which lead to obscene amounts of flailing. Kaza kissed him on the cheek during a drunken game of spin the bottle.
Kio: 1
----Was kissed by Kio during the drunken spin the bottle game and was quite uncomfortable with it since he barely knows the other man.
Riddle: 1
----Technically in the same mistletoe incident, Kazahaya innitiated the kiss, and recieved a peck of a kiss as it ended.
Shared a bed with: 2 people
Cal: approx. 12+ times
----I'm not sure who asked first, I think it was Cal, but Kazahaya has been seeking him out to sleep with him. When he starts dreaming. Calanthe's ability to close his mind allows Kazahaya to sleep relatively peacefully though the night--that, and it's really nice to sleep next to someone. Cal probably also smells good. (I'm just saying!)
Rikuou: 4 times
---1. while Rikuou was chibi- he grew up during the night.
---2. Kazahaya has persistent problems sleeping because of various bad memories he's absorbed in camp and the way they bounce off his own thoughts. sleeping close to someone who can close off their thoughts (as Rikuou canonically can) seems to help. Having discovered this Rikuou pulled Kazahaya into bed with him after Kazahaya's getting shot in the head triggered a particularly bad episode.
---3. Rikuou asked Kaza to sleep with him again while he was drunk, Kaza gave in after a while, and nearly kicked Rikuou out of bed before falling asleep.
---4. Kaza asked Rikuou if they could sleep together again directly after the one kiss, because Kazahaya had drawn memories from L's corpse the night before and was having a horrible sleepless time of it. It says a lot about both of them that they were able to slip directly from spaz/stonewalling mode back into asking for/giving help mode, because of the really important issues. yay priorities?
Others:
----kind of kissed Momoko, and made out with Rikuou, only in Momoko's dreams
----has held Rikuou's hand 3 times for reasons of plot
----no we really won't go into how many times he's been carried back to bed now.
....Following tradition, the only reason I'm posting this--besides amusement--is to copy Rikuou because that's fun :D
Each of the three actions have different signifigances. Hugging is actually the biggest for Kazahaya. He doesn't do it casually. He doesn't touch casually at all really, but hugging involves a prolonged contact with another person. He's hesitant to do this at all. It shows quite a lot of trust and true affection for a person that he would offer. Getting hugged by someone unexpectedly, for similar reasons, causes Kazahaya a great deal of distress.
Kissing is really not so much a big deal. Yes, he blushes and tries to avoid it at all costs, but it's more of a friendly and calm situation. Cal is the only one who has ever really kissed him (not to mention being his first on the lips kiss), and even then, it's not really a sexually charged action. It can move quickly in that direction, but for the most part, kissing itself is just a way to show affection.
Sleeping with, hm... This action has a lot of signifigance that has very little to do with sex and a lot to do with placing an obscene amount of trust in a person. It also helps that the two people he has chosen to sleep with at camp are able to block their minds. This allows him to sleep rather peacefully beside them, as well as drawing comfort from their prescences.
Comfortable in his sexuality:
Kazahaya is actually for the most part just NOT sexual.
If you have to classify him as something though, he's bisexual.
Simply put, Kazahaya doesn't think of things sexually very much. In his canon, he allows himself to consider a possible relationship between Rikuou and himself one time and ends up spazzing in his so cute "omigod I can't believe I just thought that" way and then blames it on the influence of the school where they're working at the time. After which, he never gives it another thought.
He notices the way other people react with each other though. He recognizes Nayuki's feelings for Mukofujiwara, and neither condemns nor condones them. He recognizes the school girl crushes of the girls who come to the pharmacy just to giggle over Rikuou, and he finds them obnoxious. He's not oblivious to most relationships but the ones involving himself.
Why?
Kei.
End of story.
Kazahaya loves Kei. She is his world until he leaves home, and even afterwards, she absorbs his thoughts. He will always place his feelings for her above even his concern for himself and certainly before any others. He misses her, longs to see her, and cannot stop mourning the fact that he has to be apart from her. He is blinded to any potential relationships for himself because he is still wrapped up in loving her.
What does this mean for viewing his sexuality?
It means that he really doesn't have one. He finds men and women to be attractive and beautiful, and he enjoys being around both genders. He does not, however, prefer one over the other because he doesn't really see them sexually. They're drop dead gorgeous and mind-numbingly arresting; however, he will not seek out relationships with them beyond friendships. He gives equal opportunities to both genders to completely defeat his higher brain functions when someone whips out the hotness, but he moves past it just as quickly.
Tot: 2
----Once the day after Halloween; once when he found out about Rabbi-chan (I'm pretty sure)
Rikuou: 1
----Hugged by, and completely broke his brain, after he fell into the Jyuusenko springs.
Cal: 1
----After getting his heart back following the Gentlemen incident, Kaza hugs him because yay no more gaping hole in chest.
Momoko: 1
----Hugged by, and was completely taken off guard and tensed up, after giving her a Christmas present.
Kisses: 12
Cal: 2
----Kissed (or tonsels examined) once in the spin the bottle game, and (cumulatively) once during a slightly drunken poker game: technically--wrist, neck, cheek, and then an amazing kiss on the lips♥
Anne: 2
----Twice (one from and one returned) on the cheek during the spin the bottle game
Goku: 2
----Twice (one from and one returned) on the cheek during the spin the bottle game
Renji: 1
----While Renji was an eevee, Kaza kissed him on the top of his head. (Kitty~~~)
Rikuou: 3
----Once on the cheek which startled him, and once on the lips on the anniversary of their meeting which lead to obscene amounts of flailing. Kaza kissed him on the cheek during a drunken game of spin the bottle.
Kio: 1
----Was kissed by Kio during the drunken spin the bottle game and was quite uncomfortable with it since he barely knows the other man.
Riddle: 1
----Technically in the same mistletoe incident, Kazahaya innitiated the kiss, and recieved a peck of a kiss as it ended.
Shared a bed with: 2 people
Cal: approx. 12+ times
----I'm not sure who asked first, I think it was Cal, but Kazahaya has been seeking him out to sleep with him. When he starts dreaming. Calanthe's ability to close his mind allows Kazahaya to sleep relatively peacefully though the night--that, and it's really nice to sleep next to someone. Cal probably also smells good. (I'm just saying!)
Rikuou: 4 times
---1. while Rikuou was chibi- he grew up during the night.
---2. Kazahaya has persistent problems sleeping because of various bad memories he's absorbed in camp and the way they bounce off his own thoughts. sleeping close to someone who can close off their thoughts (as Rikuou canonically can) seems to help. Having discovered this Rikuou pulled Kazahaya into bed with him after Kazahaya's getting shot in the head triggered a particularly bad episode.
---3. Rikuou asked Kaza to sleep with him again while he was drunk, Kaza gave in after a while, and nearly kicked Rikuou out of bed before falling asleep.
---4. Kaza asked Rikuou if they could sleep together again directly after the one kiss, because Kazahaya had drawn memories from L's corpse the night before and was having a horrible sleepless time of it. It says a lot about both of them that they were able to slip directly from spaz/stonewalling mode back into asking for/giving help mode, because of the really important issues. yay priorities?
Others:
----kind of kissed Momoko, and made out with Rikuou, only in Momoko's dreams
----has held Rikuou's hand 3 times for reasons of plot
----no we really won't go into how many times he's been carried back to bed now.
....Following tradition, the only reason I'm posting this--besides amusement--is to copy Rikuou because that's fun :D
Each of the three actions have different signifigances. Hugging is actually the biggest for Kazahaya. He doesn't do it casually. He doesn't touch casually at all really, but hugging involves a prolonged contact with another person. He's hesitant to do this at all. It shows quite a lot of trust and true affection for a person that he would offer. Getting hugged by someone unexpectedly, for similar reasons, causes Kazahaya a great deal of distress.
Kissing is really not so much a big deal. Yes, he blushes and tries to avoid it at all costs, but it's more of a friendly and calm situation. Cal is the only one who has ever really kissed him (not to mention being his first on the lips kiss), and even then, it's not really a sexually charged action. It can move quickly in that direction, but for the most part, kissing itself is just a way to show affection.
Sleeping with, hm... This action has a lot of signifigance that has very little to do with sex and a lot to do with placing an obscene amount of trust in a person. It also helps that the two people he has chosen to sleep with at camp are able to block their minds. This allows him to sleep rather peacefully beside them, as well as drawing comfort from their prescences.
Comfortable in his sexuality:
Kazahaya is actually for the most part just NOT sexual.
If you have to classify him as something though, he's bisexual.
Simply put, Kazahaya doesn't think of things sexually very much. In his canon, he allows himself to consider a possible relationship between Rikuou and himself one time and ends up spazzing in his so cute "omigod I can't believe I just thought that" way and then blames it on the influence of the school where they're working at the time. After which, he never gives it another thought.
He notices the way other people react with each other though. He recognizes Nayuki's feelings for Mukofujiwara, and neither condemns nor condones them. He recognizes the school girl crushes of the girls who come to the pharmacy just to giggle over Rikuou, and he finds them obnoxious. He's not oblivious to most relationships but the ones involving himself.
Why?
Kei.
End of story.
Kazahaya loves Kei. She is his world until he leaves home, and even afterwards, she absorbs his thoughts. He will always place his feelings for her above even his concern for himself and certainly before any others. He misses her, longs to see her, and cannot stop mourning the fact that he has to be apart from her. He is blinded to any potential relationships for himself because he is still wrapped up in loving her.
What does this mean for viewing his sexuality?
It means that he really doesn't have one. He finds men and women to be attractive and beautiful, and he enjoys being around both genders. He does not, however, prefer one over the other because he doesn't really see them sexually. They're drop dead gorgeous and mind-numbingly arresting; however, he will not seek out relationships with them beyond friendships. He gives equal opportunities to both genders to completely defeat his higher brain functions when someone whips out the hotness, but he moves past it just as quickly.