Unclean. He still and probably always will, first and foremost think of Mukuro as a child, a little brother, someone he was supposed to protect. That was how he was first introduced to the boy. It's how it always should remain as far as he's concerned. He's also got a very strong sense of right and wrong. It's very wrong to think of someone 10 years younger than you as sexually attractive, especially when they're still a child. It's not right to find someone of the same gender attractive. And it's repellent to find someone you considered to be a younger brother sexually attractive.
But he does just that to a small degree -- especially when it's brought to his attention and he's asked to look at the man Mukuro's growing into. It will continue to be a problem the older Mukuro gets because he'll have more and more trouble seeing him as a child when he's twenty or twenty-five. He doesn't want that because it goes against his beliefs of what's right and what's proper.
As far as Mukuro wanting Lancia to find him attractive, he just has no idea what to do about that, because he does; and doesn't want to. He greets it with the same reservation that he would anything Mukuro wanted of him. Warily. What does Mukuro really want? What is he trying to gain? How will this hurt him? How will it be used to hurt others? He's very on the defensive about the whole idea.
Mostly, he tries to ignore the entire possibility.
If Mukuro at 15 and and post-jesus-ing, looking back at what he had done to Lancia and his family, would he change anything about how he handled the situation, drawing on the experience he's gained since then?
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But he does just that to a small degree -- especially when it's brought to his attention and he's asked to look at the man Mukuro's growing into. It will continue to be a problem the older Mukuro gets because he'll have more and more trouble seeing him as a child when he's twenty or twenty-five. He doesn't want that because it goes against his beliefs of what's right and what's proper.
As far as Mukuro wanting Lancia to find him attractive, he just has no idea what to do about that, because he does; and doesn't want to. He greets it with the same reservation that he would anything Mukuro wanted of him. Warily. What does Mukuro really want? What is he trying to gain? How will this hurt him? How will it be used to hurt others? He's very on the defensive about the whole idea.
Mostly, he tries to ignore the entire possibility.
If Mukuro at 15 and and post-jesus-ing, looking back at what he had done to Lancia and his family, would he change anything about how he handled the situation, drawing on the experience he's gained since then?