Ship Meme with a Twist
Oct. 22nd, 2009 09:55 amStolen from Tomo and AJ o/
Here is how it works. Today is October 22nd. I am posting a relationship meme. The catch is, you have to comment to it asking about a relationship we don't have yet. Either the characters haven't threaded or they've threaded like once.
On November 22nd I will reply to the meme. That means we have a month to try and actually create that relationship. THIS POST IS LIKE MY VOW THAT I WILL THREAD WITH YOU, SOMEHOW, IN THE NEXT MONTH, MORE THAN ONCE. Obviously sometimes characters don't click and that's cool! We can move on! But the attempt will be made, and then a month from today you'll have a relationship meme response waiting for you.
ADDED SIDENOTES:
- You can request as many relationships as you like but I withhold the right to go "derp derp derp" on all but one of them if I suddenly become busy. Which I'm really not right now.
- and yet if I haven't jumped you BEAT ME.
- I AM A CHRONIC THREADDROPPER. USUALLY IF YOU POKE ME AND LINK ME I WILL JUMP AND PICK UP THE THREAD. BUT I OFTEN FORGET I AM THREADING OR WHAT I AM THREADING ABOUT. PLEASE PLEASE BEAT ME.
I play:
Kazahaya - spazzy mcspaztastic touch clairvoyant: easy to talk to, hard to get close to.
Caeru - the royal Tigrina: straight forward in all things, blunt to a fault, and loves everyone. unless he doesn't.
Shikamaru - shadow bastard: non-talkative, ninja genius, hard to get close to but loyal forever when you do.
Ziva -NCIS Mossad agent: brisk, brusk, and tends to top and you like it.
Spitfire - former King of Flame: friendly, outgoing, hot as hell and likes to flirt.
Lancia - Camp's nanny and Mukuro's mom: terrifyingly powerful bodyguard with a huge soft spot for women and children.
Senji - deadman walking: does not handle women well at all, likes fighting better than just about anything.
Akira - reincarnations and counteralignments: not very friendly at all, tends to piss people off, completely devoted to people even if he beats the shit out of them.
Jack V. - soul fragment in a borrowed shell: friendly, cheerful, and a huge flirt, he likes to meet people (especially ladies).
Here is how it works. Today is October 22nd. I am posting a relationship meme. The catch is, you have to comment to it asking about a relationship we don't have yet. Either the characters haven't threaded or they've threaded like once.
On November 22nd I will reply to the meme. That means we have a month to try and actually create that relationship. THIS POST IS LIKE MY VOW THAT I WILL THREAD WITH YOU, SOMEHOW, IN THE NEXT MONTH, MORE THAN ONCE. Obviously sometimes characters don't click and that's cool! We can move on! But the attempt will be made, and then a month from today you'll have a relationship meme response waiting for you.
ADDED SIDENOTES:
- You can request as many relationships as you like but I withhold the right to go "derp derp derp" on all but one of them if I suddenly become busy. Which I'm really not right now.
- and yet if I haven't jumped you BEAT ME.
- I AM A CHRONIC THREADDROPPER. USUALLY IF YOU POKE ME AND LINK ME I WILL JUMP AND PICK UP THE THREAD. BUT I OFTEN FORGET I AM THREADING OR WHAT I AM THREADING ABOUT. PLEASE PLEASE BEAT ME.
I play:
Kazahaya - spazzy mcspaztastic touch clairvoyant: easy to talk to, hard to get close to.
Caeru - the royal Tigrina: straight forward in all things, blunt to a fault, and loves everyone. unless he doesn't.
Shikamaru - shadow bastard: non-talkative, ninja genius, hard to get close to but loyal forever when you do.
Ziva -
Spitfire - former King of Flame: friendly, outgoing, hot as hell and likes to flirt.
Lancia - Camp's nanny and Mukuro's mom: terrifyingly powerful bodyguard with a huge soft spot for women and children.
Senji - deadman walking: does not handle women well at all, likes fighting better than just about anything.
Akira - reincarnations and counteralignments: not very friendly at all, tends to piss people off, completely devoted to people even if he beats the shit out of them.
Jack V. - soul fragment in a borrowed shell: friendly, cheerful, and a huge flirt, he likes to meet people (especially ladies).
Scheduling things
Aug. 24th, 2009 11:45 amI don't know if I've ever done one of these before, but since it's now beginning to seriously effect my play schedule, I thought I'd throw this up so people know what's going on.
I just had a hiatus from moving to a new house. Yay! I'm still not done packing. Buu! Also school just started last week... and a new work schedule. ;aslkdjf;lsdjf SO!
Schedule Fall 2009
Monday
3:25 to 4:40 pm - Research Methods
5:00 to 1:00 am - work
Tuesday
12:00 to 5:00 pm - work
5:30 to 8:00 pm - Cultures of SE Asia
Wednesday
3:25 to 4:40 pm - Research Methods
5:00 to 1:00 am - work
Thursday
5:00 to 1:00 am - work
Friday
5:00 to 1:00 am - work
And because the place I work is filled with hors who do not understand what it means to hire enough workers or schedule them correctly, they expect their employees to have no life outside of the company's demands and I could be working a couple of weekends. With no pattern because they're whores.
(Seriously they asked me this weekend if I could come in after I'd been telling them for two weeks that I was having a huge gathering at my new house that was going to last all day Saturday. They're such special asses.)
Anyway, if you want to thread, I'll be aroundish, but Sunday night through Wednesday are going to me hectic to say the least.
I just had a hiatus from moving to a new house. Yay! I'm still not done packing. Buu! Also school just started last week... and a new work schedule. ;aslkdjf;lsdjf SO!
Schedule Fall 2009
Monday
3:25 to 4:40 pm - Research Methods
5:00 to 1:00 am - work
Tuesday
12:00 to 5:00 pm - work
5:30 to 8:00 pm - Cultures of SE Asia
Wednesday
3:25 to 4:40 pm - Research Methods
5:00 to 1:00 am - work
Thursday
5:00 to 1:00 am - work
Friday
5:00 to 1:00 am - work
And because the place I work is filled with hors who do not understand what it means to hire enough workers or schedule them correctly, they expect their employees to have no life outside of the company's demands and I could be working a couple of weekends. With no pattern because they're whores.
(Seriously they asked me this weekend if I could come in after I'd been telling them for two weeks that I was having a huge gathering at my new house that was going to last all day Saturday. They're such special asses.)
Anyway, if you want to thread, I'll be aroundish, but Sunday night through Wednesday are going to me hectic to say the least.
(no subject)
Jun. 25th, 2009 10:28 amAh, right, no CFO announcements, but I'm heading down to Savannah to visit Box for the weekend. I have no idea how much I'll actually be able to be online since my laptop is so much dead (and getting replaced currently).
I... have no plans... other than that. >_>; And possibly sleeping at some point.... maybe.
I... have no plans... other than that. >_>; And possibly sleeping at some point.... maybe.
Player Statistics and History
Apr. 12th, 2009 05:44 pmRarh rarh rarh. Okay, fine, I'm easy. Nine characters. No drops. wao.. Stolen from
haphazardace who jacked it from
mackzazzle. o/♥
( where all my statistics go for my characters/play orz )
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( where all my statistics go for my characters/play orz )
Personality Disorders
Mar. 22nd, 2009 12:11 amFor characters one through nine o/
( You love me for this yes? )
My issues, let me show them to you:
{Least} Spitfire --> Lancia|Shikamaru --> Ziva --> Roxy --> Kazahaya --> Rue|Akira --> Senji {Most}
( You love me for this yes? )
My issues, let me show them to you:
{Least} Spitfire --> Lancia|Shikamaru --> Ziva --> Roxy --> Kazahaya --> Rue|Akira --> Senji {Most}
[IC] Christmas time presents
Dec. 14th, 2008 07:20 pmRikuou: a snow owl plush and a box of homemade fudge
Tot: a loli dress with a matching umbrella and bag that should be just the right size for a couple of stuffed bunnies
Tot: a loli dress with a matching umbrella and bag that should be just the right size for a couple of stuffed bunnies
Number Crunch plus Relationship Meme!
Dec. 14th, 2008 04:42 amKudou Kazahaya: (
touch_sensitive)
Caeru Meveny: (
ruecherche)
Nara Shikamaru: (
shadow_bum)
Roxy "Freefall" Spaulding: (
memoirofadrmaqn)
Ziva David: (
raepyourwords)
Spitfire: (
foxinthefire)
Lancia: (
headcaduceus)
Senji Kiyomasa: (
whettheblood)
Total comments: 76,634
Total days in camp: 1,193
Comments per day: 64.2
Since last time:
Total days: 259 days
Total comment increase: 13,284
Comments per day: 51.3
Previous numbers: 2006-06-15
Previous numbers: 2006-09-27
Previous numbers: 2007-02-20
Previous numbers: 2007-05-01
Previous numbers: 2007-06-11
Previous numbers: 2007-07-12
Previous numbers: 2007-08-28
Previous numbers: 2007-11-28
Previous numbers: 2008-03-30
Hm... Seems like Kazahaya and Spitfire are currently running dead even for primary. Lancia and Caeru are pretty evenly played. Senji and Shikamaru are even, and Roxy and Ziva are even at the bottom still.
Once more doing my numbers has made me painfully aware at how much I neglect my girls. I don't mean to. I really love them, but they're harder to get out for some reasons, in Ziva's case, I think part of it is because she feels so out of place in camp. Roxy... I don't have an excuse for.
Roxy, Ziva, and Shikamaru remain my problem children, and I have several times over the last 8 months considered dropping one or more of them. I haven't because every time I do, something happens and I'm reminded that I love them more than life and would die if I didn't have them.
Rue's also been giving me problems. I'm working on trying to get this fixed, but his relationships in camp are pretty well in shambles right now, and he needs to meet some new people. Soon... before I hit another bad spot and don't have the common sense to walk away from the computer before I put up the drop post.
Senji has some real potential to over take my others, but he doesn't get out as much as he could. This isn't such a bad thing, but it's something I have to keep in mind. I was actually a little surprised his numbers were as high as they were. I know he doesn't get out much, but apparently when he does, he gets out with a vengance.
I'm pretty zen at the moment about Kaza, Spit, and Lan.
Last number crunch of 2008! WOOT!
So!
If you want to know about your character and one of mine, this is the place to ask it. Bear in mind, I will probably never get back to the communal relationship meme, so if you asked there, you should probably reask here and then beat me to within an inch of my life if I don't answer you. That is all. o/
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b. 2005 September 08
days in camp: 1,193
comment count: 38,123
comments per day: 40.0
(49.7% of total)
Since last time:
comment increase: 3,125
comments per day: 12.1
(23.5% of increase)
Caeru Meveny: (
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b. 2005 December 18
days in camp: 1,092
comment count: 15,922
comments per day: 14.6
(20.8% of total)
Since last time:
comment increase: 1,595
comments per day: 6.1
(12.0% of increase)
Nara Shikamaru: (
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b. 2006 May 25
days in camp: 934
comment count: 6,452
comments per day: 6.9
(8.4% of total)
Since last time:
comment increase: 1,108
comments per day: 4.3
(8.3% of increase)
Roxy "Freefall" Spaulding: (
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b. 2006 December 7
days in camp: 738
comment count: 3,815
comments per day: 5.2
(5.0% of total)
Since last time:
comment increase: 809
comments per day: 3.1
(6.1% of increase)
Ziva David: (
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b. 2007 July 1
days in camp: 532
comment count: 2,305
comments per day: 4.3
(3.0% of total)
Since last time:
comment increase: 758
comments per day: 2.9
(5.7% of increase)
Spitfire: (
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b. 2007 August 19
days in camp: 483
comment count: 5,978
comments per day: 12.4
(7.8% of total)
Since last time:
comment increase: 3,072
comments per day: 11.9
(23.2% of increase)
Lancia: (
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b. 2007 December 18
days in camp: 362
comment count: 2,868
comments per day: 7.9
(3.7% of total)
Since last time:
comment increase: 1,646
comments per day: 6.4
(12.4% of increase)
Senji Kiyomasa: (
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b. 2008 July 6
days in camp: 161
comment count: 1,171
comments per day: 7.3
(1.5% of total)
Since last time:
comment increase: 1,171
comments per day: --
(8.8% of increase)
Total comments: 76,634
Total days in camp: 1,193
Comments per day: 64.2
Since last time:
Total days: 259 days
Total comment increase: 13,284
Comments per day: 51.3
Previous numbers: 2006-06-15
Previous numbers: 2006-09-27
Previous numbers: 2007-02-20
Previous numbers: 2007-05-01
Previous numbers: 2007-06-11
Previous numbers: 2007-07-12
Previous numbers: 2007-08-28
Previous numbers: 2007-11-28
Previous numbers: 2008-03-30
Hm... Seems like Kazahaya and Spitfire are currently running dead even for primary. Lancia and Caeru are pretty evenly played. Senji and Shikamaru are even, and Roxy and Ziva are even at the bottom still.
Once more doing my numbers has made me painfully aware at how much I neglect my girls. I don't mean to. I really love them, but they're harder to get out for some reasons, in Ziva's case, I think part of it is because she feels so out of place in camp. Roxy... I don't have an excuse for.
Roxy, Ziva, and Shikamaru remain my problem children, and I have several times over the last 8 months considered dropping one or more of them. I haven't because every time I do, something happens and I'm reminded that I love them more than life and would die if I didn't have them.
Rue's also been giving me problems. I'm working on trying to get this fixed, but his relationships in camp are pretty well in shambles right now, and he needs to meet some new people. Soon... before I hit another bad spot and don't have the common sense to walk away from the computer before I put up the drop post.
Senji has some real potential to over take my others, but he doesn't get out as much as he could. This isn't such a bad thing, but it's something I have to keep in mind. I was actually a little surprised his numbers were as high as they were. I know he doesn't get out much, but apparently when he does, he gets out with a vengance.
I'm pretty zen at the moment about Kaza, Spit, and Lan.
Last number crunch of 2008! WOOT!
So!
If you want to know about your character and one of mine, this is the place to ask it. Bear in mind, I will probably never get back to the communal relationship meme, so if you asked there, you should probably reask here and then beat me to within an inch of my life if I don't answer you. That is all. o/
Dear Santa...
Dec. 6th, 2008 03:25 pmIt's been a crazy year. I've tried to be a nice and sweet and innocent and lovely all year, but I may have failed a time or two. I'm hoping you love me anyway. :<
I love getting things and I like a lot of things. Of course stuff from my canons would be amazing, but really, anything from the following would be awesome:
I play from: Lawful Drug, Wraeththu, ... Naruto as related to team 10, Gen13, NCIS, Air Gear, Reborn!, Deadman Wonderland.
I also like (manga): Tactics, FMA, DN Angel, Mushishi, Blade of the Immortal, Saiyuki, Wild Adapter, Bus Gamer, Araiso, Here is Greenwood, Death Note (as relating to L/Light). Also, Dragon Voice, Banana Fish, Hunter x Hunter, ParaKiss, Angelic Layer, One Thousand and One Nights.
I also like (books): Nightrunner, Pern, Starwars (pre-Episode one release)... um... Pern, etc.
Mediumwise, I love fiction and art (and drama CD if you can find them), but I'm open to anything, and if you have something in mind and want to ask me about it, just drop a line here.
ILU Santa-san~
Kaza-mun et al.
'm sorry for getting this up so late. 'm gonna take more medicine now and go study for exams. loev everyone.
I love getting things and I like a lot of things. Of course stuff from my canons would be amazing, but really, anything from the following would be awesome:
I play from: Lawful Drug, Wraeththu, ... Naruto as related to team 10, Gen13, NCIS, Air Gear, Reborn!, Deadman Wonderland.
I also like (manga): Tactics, FMA, DN Angel, Mushishi, Blade of the Immortal, Saiyuki, Wild Adapter, Bus Gamer, Araiso, Here is Greenwood, Death Note (as relating to L/Light). Also, Dragon Voice, Banana Fish, Hunter x Hunter, ParaKiss, Angelic Layer, One Thousand and One Nights.
I also like (books): Nightrunner, Pern, Starwars (pre-Episode one release)... um... Pern, etc.
Mediumwise, I love fiction and art (and drama CD if you can find them), but I'm open to anything, and if you have something in mind and want to ask me about it, just drop a line here.
ILU Santa-san~
Kaza-mun et al.
'm sorry for getting this up so late. 'm gonna take more medicine now and go study for exams. loev everyone.
Stolen from everyone. Copypastaed from Aviy.
I HAVE BECOME ONE OF THOSE PEOPLE WHO CAN ONLY DO LAZY MEMES.
- The one they most enjoy getting
- Any (if applicable) they don't like getting
- The most "you" face you have
- And an icon they are surprised you have
NAME THE RELATIONSHIP, NOT JUST ALL YOUR CHARACTERS. AND GIVE ME USER NAMES.
I PLAY Kazahaya, Rue, Shikamaru, Roxy, Ziva, Spitfire, Lancia, Senji.
I HAVE BECOME ONE OF THOSE PEOPLE WHO CAN ONLY DO LAZY MEMES.
- The one they most enjoy getting
- Any (if applicable) they don't like getting
- The most "you" face you have
- And an icon they are surprised you have
NAME THE RELATIONSHIP, NOT JUST ALL YOUR CHARACTERS. AND GIVE ME USER NAMES.
I PLAY Kazahaya, Rue, Shikamaru, Roxy, Ziva, Spitfire, Lancia, Senji.
I ramble. Short version = not!hiatus
Jun. 7th, 2008 07:49 amRight. I should post this while I actually have a computer handy that can handle LJ for more than an hour.
( this is not a drop cut )
So anyway, if I drop something that you want to continue PLEASE let me know, either here or just poke the hell out of me when I get on IRC, and I'll do my best to pick up. I'm just going to be even more scarce than usual until my baby's fixed.
( this is not a drop cut )
So anyway, if I drop something that you want to continue PLEASE let me know, either here or just poke the hell out of me when I get on IRC, and I'll do my best to pick up. I'm just going to be even more scarce than usual until my baby's fixed.
i r sheep baaaaaa
May. 5th, 2008 09:02 pmIt goes LIKE SO. You comment here and ASK A QUESTION it can be anything CFUD related, OOC, IC, Relationship, psychology, thoughts, whatever. I.E. My character's opinion of your character or maybe what you have been wondering about this behavior or that, or general thoughts on my characters or canons or what, who I might consider raping you into apping, etc.
WHEN I REPLY I will also ask you a question in turn!
In this way we talk at each other, which is fun.
I play Kazahaya, Caeru, Shikamaru, Roxy, Ziva, and Spitfire. Edit: ...and Lancia. *headdesks*
Ask away o/
WHEN I REPLY I will also ask you a question in turn!
In this way we talk at each other, which is fun.
I play Kazahaya, Caeru, Shikamaru, Roxy, Ziva, and Spitfire. Edit: ...and Lancia. *headdesks*
Ask away o/
(no subject)
Apr. 29th, 2008 11:25 pm( oops. lj cut for the poll that was supposed to be dated out of order and not on the flist at all. sorry about that )
( subtle variations on 3 )
Feel free to keep answering it.
( subtle variations on 3 )
Feel free to keep answering it.
Number crunching plus Drop Meme
Mar. 30th, 2008 02:50 amKudou Kazahaya: (
touch_sensitive)
( Survey says... )
Caeru Meveny: (
ruecherche)
( Survey says... )
Nara Shikamaru: (
shadow_bum)
( Survey says... )
Roxy "Freefall" Spaulding: (
memoirofadrmaqn)
( Survey says... )
Ziva David: (
raepyourwords)
( Survey says... )
Spitfire: (
foxinthefire)
( Survey says... )
Lancia: (
headcaduceus)
( Survey says... )
Total comments: 63,350
Total days in camp: 934
Comments per day: 67.8
Since last time:
Total days: 123 days
Total comment increase: 6,372
Comments per day: 51.8
Previous numbers: 2006-06-15
Previous numbers: 2006-09-27
Previous numbers: 2007-02-20
Previous numbers: 2007-05-01
Previous numbers: 2007-06-11
Previous numbers: 2007-07-12
Previous numbers: 2007-08-28
Previous numbers: 2007-11-28
In general, I think work more than anything is just wearing me out. It's winter/spring which is a hard time for me anyway, but I've been putting in 10 hour days at work on a regular basis for the past three months. I haven't been eating well because of it. I don't have a set schedule for just about anything. It's wearing me down and tiring me out which makes coming home and playing hard.
I love Camp, and I don't want to leave it. I'm very glad that I've been able to play with everyone for so long, and I want to continue playing until I truly can't stomach it anymore. I'm just afraid to burn out or keep pushing myself until it's not fun anymore. I don't want that to happen.
... I think I moved into the realm of tl;dr about a third of the way through this. =_=;;
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b. 2005 September 08
days in camp: 934
comment count: 34,998
comments per day: 34.5
(55.2% of total)
Since last time:
comment increase: 1668
comments per day: 13.6
(26.2% of increase)
( Survey says... )
Caeru Meveny: (
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b. 2005 December 18
days in camp: 833
comment count: 14,327
comments per day: 17.2
(22.6% of total)
Since last time:
comment increase: 1115
comments per day: 9.1
(17.5% of increase)
( Survey says... )
Nara Shikamaru: (
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b. 2006 May 25
days in camp: 675
comment count: 5,344
comments per day: 7.9
(8.4% of total)
Since last time:
comment increase: 368
comments per day: 3.0
(5.8% of increase)
( Survey says... )
Roxy "Freefall" Spaulding: (
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b. 2006 December 7
days in camp: 479
comment count: 3,006
comments per day: 6.3
(4.7% of total)
Since last time:
comment increase: 443
comments per day: 3.6
(7.0% of increase)
( Survey says... )
Ziva David: (
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b. 2007 July 1
days in camp: 273
comment count: 1,547
comments per day: 5.7
(2.4% of total)
Since last time:
comment increase: 465
comments per day: 3.8
(7.3% of increase)
( Survey says... )
Spitfire: (
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b. 2007 August 19
days in camp: 224
comment count: 2,906
comments per day: 13.0
(4.6% of total)
Since last time:
comment increase: 1091
comments per day: 8.9
(17.1% of increase)
( Survey says... )
Lancia: (
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b. 2007 December 18
days in camp: 103
comment count: 1,222
comments per day: 11.9
(1.9% of total)
Since last time:
comment increase: 1222
comments per day: --
(19.2% of increase)
( Survey says... )
Total comments: 63,350
Total days in camp: 934
Comments per day: 67.8
Since last time:
Total days: 123 days
Total comment increase: 6,372
Comments per day: 51.8
Previous numbers: 2006-06-15
Previous numbers: 2006-09-27
Previous numbers: 2007-02-20
Previous numbers: 2007-05-01
Previous numbers: 2007-06-11
Previous numbers: 2007-07-12
Previous numbers: 2007-08-28
Previous numbers: 2007-11-28
In general, I think work more than anything is just wearing me out. It's winter/spring which is a hard time for me anyway, but I've been putting in 10 hour days at work on a regular basis for the past three months. I haven't been eating well because of it. I don't have a set schedule for just about anything. It's wearing me down and tiring me out which makes coming home and playing hard.
I love Camp, and I don't want to leave it. I'm very glad that I've been able to play with everyone for so long, and I want to continue playing until I truly can't stomach it anymore. I'm just afraid to burn out or keep pushing myself until it's not fun anymore. I don't want that to happen.
... I think I moved into the realm of tl;dr about a third of the way through this. =_=;;